Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Random Thoughts 12.20.11
- I'm excited to be cooking Christmas & New Year's dinner. Wish we were having some company though.
- I found my purple pen, so now I can write my pen pal.
- Christmas is 5 days away & I'm only excited about watching "A Christmas Story" & "Elf"; using my sewing machine, & cooking.
- Lipstick is a new love. Especially pink ones since I've gotten lighter with the cold weather.
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Thursday, December 15, 2011
My new love: Thrifting.
My only dilemma is that I never find pieces that I need in my closet or that can be a re-vamp project. Hopes that changes since I have my sewing machine now.
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Update on life.
* I GOT MY SEWING MACHINE!! WalMart had it on sale for Black Friday for $50. Can we say SCORE?!!
* I seriously can't wait to create pieces. I have all these ideas in my head & I can not wait to make them tangible!
* A couple weeks back I brought some 10 inch weave & sewed it in.... I took it out the next day because my real hair was about 2 inches longer than it. I'm in hair length denial.
* I have not 1 plan for New Year's Eve and it kind of makes me sad.
* My new motto for 2012: No obstacle is too big.
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Inspired.
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Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Part 2 of I let go & he got married.
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I want to go shopping!!
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I let go & he got married.
So I randomly was browsing my Facebook news feed & I see that he changed his status from 'Engaged' to 'Married'. I knew about his engagement, straight from him and with me still having feelings & being jealous (still working on that) I just knew it wasn't going to happen. He even said he was kind of not in a rush to not go thru with it for some unknown reason. On one hand I thought/wished he would want to give us a try again.. But on the other hand, he said he was happy.
He's called me once before he got married and once after. I really don't even want to talk to him, guess that's why I've missed both calls and haven't called him back. Oh well, another one bites the dust.
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Thursday, November 17, 2011
All of the 'Ifs'.
-If I lived in NY/NJ, going to my cousin's birthday party wouldn't be a second thought.
Those are 2 major 'Ifs' I wouldn't have to think about, but I do. Can't change them at the moment, but I will.
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Thursday, October 27, 2011
Randomness for October?
- First couple of weeks sucked: I looked for work & just chilled.
- Went to NY for 2 weeks & it was decent.
- Came back home and tried to get back in the groove of things but that took a week or so.
- My best friend move to NJ & invited me to move in with him. Seriously thinking about taking up his offer.
- Still having the want & desires to make clothes. Btw, I went to the now famous Mood Fabric Store in NY & fell in complete love with it.
- As of now, I'm still looking for work & getting kinda desperate for money since the holidays are coming around.
- Thanksgiving in NY and I'm beyond hype about that.
Change is good. Depression is bad.
Monday, September 26, 2011
9.26.11 End of Day Randoms
- Pepperoni pizza almost killed me today.
- I haven't had beef since 2005 & pork since 2008.
- It was my fault because I shouldn't of ate it, but that pain I experienced is what I hope giving birth DOES NOT feel like.
- My ex boyfriend I haven't seen in over 6yrs popped up to see me at home. He's such a different person, change looks good on him.
- Accomplished step 1 of getting rid of that jealousy bug & congratulated him on the new baby. He said it was weird to hear me say that.
- We had a decent conversation before he had to leave. It was so good seeing him today.
- What is with these places that are hiring telling people to not to call to check the status of applications?
- Found a sewing machine on Craigslist for $40! I'll be calling that lady this weekend!
- I learned how to do a fishtail braid today. I don't think anyone understands how excited I am about knowing how to do this.
- I've been wanting to do this type of braid for about 6yrs & even in hair school the teacher couldn't show us how to do it.
- Click any of those last 2 links to see my hair post on the fishtail braid if you're interested on learning it!
- I found a picture dated for 10/2/2010 of my best friend & myself & I had the same type braids in that I have in now.
- I don't think that date is right because I wasn't chilling with her like that last October, I'm thinking it was 2/10/10.
- I'm about to start calling all guys hunks & honey..... Then again, maybe not. They may think I'm down to fuck when I'm really not.
- Eczema spots on my leg & neck is murdering me. The urge to itch is horrible.
- My tummy still feels weird from the attempted pepperoni homicide earlier.
- Listened to Phonte's Charity Starts At Home mixtape & dope doesn't even describe it well enough. Love it from top to bottom, no skips.
- I can't wait for the day I can create something that I can wear proudly & have someone compliment me on it. Is that vain?
Sunday, September 25, 2011
9.25.11 Randoms
- I've been sleeping a whole lot recently.. Idk if it's the weather change or what, but sleep is #1 these days.
- I wish my mother would stop wanting to talk about my paternal grandmother's failing health. I just don't want to come to the fact that she is dying.
- I need a get away from life for like a hour or so... Drugs can do that right?
- My mother got mad at me for telling her to stop bringing up my Grandma (which seemed like) every 5 minutes this weekend.
- Prayer works, right?
- I'm super bored.. If gas wasn't so high, I would love to just drive around for a little bit.
- Doing hair Friday afternoon/evening. Possibly Saturday too.
- Thanksgiving plans have changed: was going to stay home & cook, but we'll be in NYC for Thanksgiving. I ain't mad at all.
- Still looking for a quick, mind freeing get away.
- Got a couple phone calls to make tomorrow morning, checking the status of some applications. Always fun -__-
Just stupid...
Thursday, September 22, 2011
9.22.11 Randoms
- I did a good deed today! I'm even proud of myself.
- Cooked dinner for my grandma.... Then turned around and cooked dinner at home.
- I'm seriously pooped.
- Something about my ex-bf commenting on my FB is confusing.......
- I want to add more people to my 2nd Facebook, but I'm thinking about deleting both profiles altogether.
- I made buttery potatoes & they are DELISH. I may share that recipe if I'm asked.
- Just randomly started reciting Wale lyrics.. I can't remember the song title or who else is featured......
- I also made some of the stickiest, sweetest, crunchiest bbq chicken wings in my entire cooking history.
- So happy that my weight loss is visible.... Now to work on that working out thing -__-
- I figured out what Wale song it was... Rather Be With You <--- click that & listen!
- I want to have one last cookout of the year before it gets too cold. Maybe invite some folks over to enjoy my cooking.
- My mother won't even care as long as I cook enough for the week.
- Facebook & these questions/numbers games bore me... Yet I want to join in: bittersweet.
- Listened to Kanye most of the day.. That guy is amazing.
- Rethinking the whole deleting of my Facebook idea............
- I'm sleepy.... Good night!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
9.21.11 Random Thoughts
- Finally updated my hair blog.. <---click that! It has pics!
- That spot where I had my shingles rash feels funny. The doctor said that would happen, ugh.
- I've applied to a couple holiday jobs, hopefully something pans out so I can have some regular money for a couple months.
- I cleaned & rearranged my room last Friday. It's back to being messy all over again. Smh.
- I love that I can get up & have to do NOTHING to my hair. Let's see how long that lasts.
- I feel like I'm becoming more of a prude. That's a change I'm not sure I'm okay with.
- I'm not saying I was/am Miss Lucy Goosey, but I'm very open about sex.
- I feel like I have a stomach virus. This just needs to stop.
- Just noticed that ever sentence before this one, except 2, start with I. I guess that's okay since I am talking about myself.
- Ebony decided she would talk in 3rd person from this point forward.
- Ebony gave someone the title of boyfriend, when that person isn't even her boyfriend. Why would she do such a thing?
- She also said that she needs to change her toenail polish. Ebony stays doing her nails.
- Is Ebony annoying you by speaking in 3rd person?
- Okay, I'm done with that.
- Doing my little cousin's hair tomorrow... Yay?
Sunday, September 18, 2011
9.18.11 Randoms
- I have been braiding my hair since Friday and I'm still not done.
- I love going to lunch with older people. They always pay & you learn something.
- Went to church today after missing about 8 Sundays in a row.
- We got some cuteness @ church, specifically in the Music Department. Just *licking fingers*
- I had a dream that my cut buddy got shot & died, but what stands out the most is his aunt telling me that I love him and that I needed to tell him.
- Some guy at church, came up to me & said "I like these braids *grabs hair* They are very poetic... justice.." I didn't even get mad, just laughed!
- I cooked that French fried onion fried chicken for dinner today & it isn't half bad!
- You know how most people say rejection just makes them go harder for what they want? Yeah, not for me.
- Trey Songz was a better singer when he had braids. Now he's just something to look at (which is a good thing), but his singing is just bleh.
- I already know what I'm getting for Christmas.
My "Teeth issue"
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
9.14.11 End of day Randoms
- Went to the doctor's today and got a decent report... Lost a couple pounds and my shingles are just about gone. I'm excited.
- While in the doctor's office I picked up a March or May 2011 InStyle Magazine, skimming the pages I see Kim K. & Kris Humphries and I read the caption. She's 5'2" & he's 6'9". How do these super short women get these super tall dudes? A tall woman like myself (5'11.5") needs something 6'9" and up to feel small. But 6ft is good enough for me, even 5'11".
- 16 yrs ago my mother came home with this little lightskinned, grey eyed creature named Malik. I watched him grow to become the almost man that he is today. Happy Birthday lil big brother.
- People really take Twitter serious.
- I had a chicken philly today and oh my lawd, I missed that so much.
- I had to add the .5 to my height... That's my true height.
- I miss wearing heels every other day.
- Cushioned platform pumps are everything and I need 2 pairs (black & nude).
- Watched some of Dr. Oz's "Arsenic in Apple Juice" episode today and OH MY G! I will never ever ever drink apple juice again.
- Yum. Yum. Yum. Common is on Jon Stewart's show right now. That's one fine man.
- I listened to most of Watch The Throne and I feel bamboozled. Otis isn't even up there, what type of bull is that?
- I also downloaded my guilty pleasure song........ Well a new one.
Monday, September 12, 2011
9.12.11 Randoms
- Listening to Pandora, Ryan Leslie station and Nas' "Still Dreaming" comes on... I love that song.
- I'm so tired of being sick.. UGH!
- Finally painted my toes after about 3 days of naked nails.
- I hate naked toe nails..
- Still confined to the house since I am technically still contagious.
- My medication for the shingles cost so damn much.
- If $100,000 dropped into my back pocket I would have 0 complaints & no debt.
- My debt isn't even a 3rd of that.. So the rest would go to my "wants".
- Could I possibly go to Federal Prison for owing the IRS $2,500?
- Since I did my toes, my hair doesn't have a chance of getting flat ironed at all..
- Working on a surprise b'day present for my little brother......
- This weekend, I'm braiding my hair up.. I can't deal with it & these fevers at the same time.
- Talked to one of my exes this past week and he has matured so much. Good to know time does change some people.
- He kept telling me about his fiancée and the jealous monkey on my back didn't allow me to congratulate him.
- Still working on that jealously thing, btw.
- I read on Tumblr (I think) that black women will be single and unmarried if they keep waiting on black men & that they need to try outside their race. I have no problem with dating another race, but men (in general) don't approach me. Well the right type of guy doesn't approach me: either he's old enough to be my father, too short for my liking, or just interested in sex.
- And I do see some sexy white guys I would love to swirl with..
- Spoke to another ex Saturday night and he was pissed that I haven't called him even though I was sick.. I love when people are mad with me..
- I'm not even the type to complain about being sick, so if I'm not calling you or if you call to come see me and I'm sick.. Best believe something is really wrong.
- Seriously, $100,000 and I'm set.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Randoms for the first day of school....
- I'm not in school but my lil big brother is, starting Junior year in HS. Time has definitely flew.
- So, I spent about 4 hrs in the emergency room yesterday to figure out why I have still been feeling sick & getting fevers: SHINGLES.
- What's crazy about all this is that I've had the chicken pox 2 times as a kid and with me getting the tonsillitis, that virus woke up the chicken pox in my system.
- Shingles fact: 1 in 5 people who have had chicken pox will get shingles. How the hell did I get chose?
- This little girl from church whose hair I do, called my mother a total of 8 times in the past 4 days to try to get her hair done for school.... YESTERDAY. How rude is that? You wait until the holiday/last day because you were out of town. Whose to say I would have been in town?
- Then her mother called my house to speak to my mother like I'm lying about being sick.
- I swear I hate people. If I'm telling you I'm sick, guess what? I'M FUCKING SICK. Leave it at that.
- The tonsillitis cleared up by the way. AWESOME.
- That IV I had in hurt. (Yeah I'm a punk)
- Watching AMTV (videos on MTV in the morning), this is so different from the MTV I watched when I was 10.
- Hearing Anthony Kedis' voice is refreshing.... Red Hot Chili Peppers.
- I'm going back to sleep since it's still early.
Monday, September 5, 2011
You said do what?
Friday, September 2, 2011
9.2.11 Randoms
- Yesterday was the first day since I've left the house while sick. I felt great until I got a fever..
- I have officially been sick for 2 weeks and it's a off and on thing.
- Today will be the 2nd day I leave the house and I'm hoping that I don't get a fever while I'm out.
- My toe nail color has been the same for about 3 weeks. That's not normal for me.
- I haven't worn lipgloss or lipstick in 2 weeks.
- Being way too old for a Christmas list, I told my family if they get me anything this year, make sure it's a sewing machine.
- I got my bill for my ER visit yesterday: $450 for 3 liquid Tylenols, a strep test, and that's about it. Not having medical insurance is a bitch.
- I have a spot of eczema on the nape of my neck that is soooo not sexy and it hurts.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Today is????
- Idk what today is.
- Labor Day weekend & I'll be doing NOTHING.
- I actually like "Otis" now (after seeing the video a dozen times)
- Since the VMAs aired, I've been lowkey obsessing about Beyonce & Jay's baby. I don't even like them.
- I kinda hate when people ask "how far/close do you live from *insert Virginia city*"
- I'm still sick with Tonsillitis, but it's a off & on thing.
- I washed my hair 3 days ago, yet I've done nothing to my hair.
- When did you need a "membership" to go to a Free Clinic? VA sucks ass.
- Antibiotics are heavenly with devil worship mixed in.
- I have been bribed to leave the house for a milkshake. I really really really would love a milkshake though.
- Everything (bed linens, hoodies, sweaters) smells like my sweat.
- It's "cuffing season" and someone I know got caught up.. I'm glad for her though lol.
- Green toe nail polish may be making me feel sicker. Is that possible?
- My best friend is moving to NJ in October & I'm so jealous and excited for him.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Update on my life!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Not so random thoughts for 8/16/11
- DC trip is tomorrow and I haven't packed. FML.
- Sunday night, "lust" called & invited me to see him perform on Monday. The fact that he called, not FB message but CALLED had me excited.
- Monday night, I went to see him perform & it was bawse. Even though I went dolo, I had a good time.
- Last day of babysitting and I'm excited!
- My sister is coming back to VA for the week. We are gonna do some hoodrat things all week, we have to.
- Writing out all these directions since my printer still doesn't have ink. YAY.
- Somebody come pack for me. I'll pay you in fried chicken & rice.
- I may have another babysitting gig when I get back from DC. 2 kids this time though.
- Seriously, the smallest things make me happy & turn me on.
- Somebody pay my cellphone bill & buy me a round trip train ticket to NYC.
- After babysitting this little baby, I don't want kids as much.. Then again, my children won't be this spoiled.
- The family reunion was ok. A lot of funny stuff went down. I'll blog about it later.
- That 1 blue motorcycle I had last night @ the club had me bent. I'm such a lightweight.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
8.11.11 Random Thoughts
- What's today?! THURSDAY!!! Idk why I feel so blah.
- That last one was a lie, waking up at 5:30am to watch a cranky, spoiled baby is why I feel so lethargic.
- Yeah, I said lethargic.
- Tomorrow is going to be full of baby vomit, free HD cable, and close relatives. I really can't wait for that family get together.
- I talked to "Like" last night.. :D :D
- Why did the baby I watch have on the same outfit he had on yesterday? How can you not wash your baby?
- I totally under-charged these folks for watching their kid 8.5 hrs a day, for 5 days should equal way more than $20/day.
- I'm too nice sometimes. It's a gift & curse.
- Why do parents call to talk to a baby that can not respond back? Like that makes no sense at all!
- I have to stop saying like in front of everything. It's annoying.
- I want to make a random photo montage of myself. Is that vain?
- I need some olive oil so I can go back to oil pulling.
- I may delete my Tumblr.
- The DC trip is going to just be the DC trip next week.. No NYC this summer for me at all. FML ;( :(
- I'll be doing a photo post of this weekend's events with the fam.. That is if I don't forget my camera.
- JUST FIGURED OUT WHAT SONG MY SISTER WAS ASKING ME ABOUT LAST NIGHT!!! The mystery is solved now. Case closed.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Late night thoughts
- I saw that I got a email from Blind Fury's website. When did I sign up for that? Did someone sign him? Dude is decent.
- Babysitting for the next 4 days from 6am to 4pm. At least it's going to put some money in my pocket.
- Doing hair as a hustle isn't happening. Guess that's cool since my heart isn't in it like it use to be.
- I'm getting better and better at painting my nails with little to no mistakes. I would love some new colors and crackle polish.
- Once I get my sewing machine, I'll be making plenty of no pattern needed type of things like maxi dresses and some easy tops.
- I have to think of more topics/posts for my hair blog.
- I wonder if the 3Ls think about me as much as I think about them.
- Green is my color and I just realized it today.
- The weekend can't get here soon enough.
- 5:30 is going to be here quick.
- I wonder where I'll be in the next year because I can't be in the same place.
Like, Lust, Love......
8.9.11 Randomness
- The internet is so boring to me, recently.
- No phone + no life = BORED all the time. Seriously.
- I just realized I'm in LIKE, LOVE, and LUST. How does that even happen?
- Our DC family trip may turn into our NYC family trip and I would love that more than anything!
- Craisins are little jewels from heaven.
- Finally went to VA Beach this past weekend. It was awesome, I got my salt water taffy & ate 2 boxes.
- Snapped a couple pics while at the beach, and I must say my backyard is looking really full these days and I LOVE IT!
- I haven't eaten an entire meal in about 5 days. Is that bad?
- Family reunion this weekend will feature alcoholic beverages, cursing, fighting, and just ignorance and I'm completely down for it!
- I had to Google how to spell alcoholic, that can't be good at all.
- I start my 6 day long baby sitting gig tomorrow morning around 6:10am. YIPEE.
- I want a sewing machine BADLY. I have so many ideas of things I want to make (from Youtube inspiration) but no sewing machine :(
- Twitter is wack. I think it's more of certain people I follow. It may just be me.
- Working on a real post soon.
Monday, August 1, 2011
Random Thoughts of the early day
- I want to leave VA. More so the wing of my mother.
- Got a new toothbrush yesterday & I love it..
- Looking for a job is a job and I hate it.
- Brought a pattern to make a dress but I'm not going to use that until I get a sewing machine.
- Oh, I'm going to start making clothes.. First piece is going to be a pencil skirt.
- I need to rest up, we have a big delivery coming & a service man to fix the fridge tomorrow..
- Still haven't heard anything back from those interviews.. I'm not sure if I really care though.
- Been listening to Amel Larrieux's Bravebird album for the past couple of days. I'm in love.
- Online job applications are the worst things ever invented for a person with a short attention span since it's not entertaining.
- With #1, I wouldn't mind doing something not all the way thought thru like just leaving the homefront with no exact location in mind until I get there..
I have a different outlook today.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Randomness for 7/29/11
- I'm feeling real blah. I need change. GOOD change.
- 2 things I want in the near future: Cleared up credit & an iPhone. Smh, got my priorities all in lined lol..
- Going to see Transformers 3 (again) tomorrow with mom..
- Tuesday will be here before I know it... *blows bangs*
- Of all the potato chips we could possibly have in the crib, Salt & Vinegar are all that's available.. Beyond gross is an understatement.
- Peach ice cream is my favorite thing as of last night.
- Still haven't heard back from either one of those interviews.. What the hell?! I'm more than qualified for both of them.
- Twitter is only fun when sex is the main topic...
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Random Thoughts 7/28/11
- I'm so tired and I do nothing all day long. I was never this tired when I was working 2 jobs & doing hair on the weekends.
- Researching becoming a licensed barber. Good?
- Still haven't heard anything back from those 2 interviews.
- Bestie, Mom, & I may go to the movies tomorrow.
- I'm tired of doing NOTHING!
- I want to be where he is.... That's a new thing to me too.
- Heart still on my sleeve... He knows the full truth now.
- Woke up to a little poetry from him was the 2nd best thing that happened this week.
- Next Tuesday is "Ebony be up all damn day waiting on people Day".
- I need to be in NYC the last week & a half of August so I can go to Afro Punk with my sister.
- Cell phone is still off and I'm cool with it..
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Randomness for 7/17 - 7/26/11
- Went on 2 interviews, it's only Tuesday (barely) but I'm waiting to hear back from both jobs.
- Got a new shirt & new dress.. Wore the dress to church on Sunday...... Just man, wish I would of taken a picture..
- If you let someone go and they come back to you, that means its meant to be right? Dear God, I hope so.
- Seriously, I had the best time ever Sunday night.
- I had so many emotions come over me when the night ended, that all I could do was cry.. I never felt like that ever.
- They weren't tears of sadness though.
- I cut my finger some days back, but this bitch continues to hurt like shit. FML.
- Amy Winehouse passed away and I feel like people wanted to be there for her when it was too late. RIP.
- Elijah Minnelli LOL.. Roseanne had some classic lines.
- I need to hear "Frank"
- My friend/ex-boyfriend took me out to dinner tonight. I didn't say thank you and I don't feel bad about it... Lol I'm a rude girl.
- *In my best Tracie Spencer voice* Tender kisses, blown away...
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Random Thoughts 7/16/11?
- Idk today's date.
- Mom & I walked 2 miles on this trail.. That shit beat my ass, but it was kinda worth it.
- I missed not 1 but 2 calls from this place wanting to interview me for this position and people were home both times. How awesome!
- Had another "I want one" moment in Sam's Club today when I saw these cute little boys. *deep sigh*
- The house phone rang at 10:30pm on the dot & my heart stopped. I thought it was someone I wanted to talk to but it was my brother instead.
- Just because you get older doesn't mean you get wisdom. I wish more people realized this.
- Can I just say again, Transformers 3 was amazing!!!
- I hate how people stare at me but don't say anything. Wtf you looking at me like that for, people?! lol
- 2 words: MY ASS! Omg, it is sore.
- If I can't get out of going to church, I'm gonna have a serious attitude all day long. Bet money.
- Saw my ex something Friday, he's so not attractive to me anymore. That normally doesn't happen to me.
- I know I keep saying how bad I want to be married, I just want a boyfriend for the time being.. The married thing can come after that lol.
- I hope I kinda can't make this DC family vacay because I'll be working. My mom pisses me off so easily and that little 3 or 4 hour drive is going to be too much.
- Dad isn't done working on my car yet.. Hope he finishes before the 1st.
- I haven't worn my favorite sandals in a while.... They are so sexy smh.
- I had the hardest time finding banana clips, but I found some.. Been banana clippin it up since Thursday!
- How to Train Your Dragon is the most heroic & saddest movie ever!
- How do people have thousands of friends on FB?!
- I want passion!!!!!! Thug passion, plain passion, just some damn passion.
When is too much, too much?
9 Random Facts about me!
- My parents are divorced & have been for 10/11 years.
- I love all types of music.
- Spike Lee joints are my top choice movies.
- My second choice movies are comedies.
- Garlic is my nemesis.
- I seriously laugh at everything I shouldn't laugh at.
- If I'm not saying anything, I'm hearing and observing everything.
- I'm not very talkative, unless I'm drunk.
- I graduated HS in the class of 2004.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Randomness for 7/14/11
- Why can't I find my short banana clip?!
- I'll be buying some banana clips today.. I'm tired of ponytails & bobby pins.
- I'm hungry, but not hungry. So I won't be eating.
- Day 3 or 4 of no meat & I'm feeling great about it.
- These vaginal cramps can kiss my ass.
- May go apply for this Property Manager position since I do know a little about the field.
- We (my mother) has set the dates for our DC trip next month & my sister is going to meet us there.. Super amped about it.
- Pank dress with pank toes... A good and a bad thing to me: they match.
- I'm so tired of scratching where this eczema is.
- I need to do a real post even though I'm enjoying these random thought posts.
- Disco hasn't died, just moved... And I need more of it in my life..
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Early morning randomness
- Fell asleep on the couch like a old bastard.
- My nose piercing almost closed up.
- My whole vagina is throbbing in pain right now. Wtf is going on down there?!!!
- I didn't wrap my hair up last night :(
- I think I'm ovulating. Yay -__-
- If I had money in my bank account, I would of brought Nikki Jean & Vandalyzm's latest work YESTERDAY!
- Why tell me you're going to do something and you don't? It's just a waste of my time & your breath.
- I need to paint my toes. My mom & I have the same color, ugh!
- I love my face more when I have my eyebrows done..
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Mid Day Thoughts 7/12/11
- The smell of garlic coming out my pores is sickening.
- Buttered toast is all I want. And it's all I had this morning.
- Hydrocortisone cream is a godsend for my eczema.
- I'm all for loving who you choose to love, but the gay porn on my Tumblr dashboard is too fucking much.
- Water & a banana.
- Bottled water is the only water I drink outside of NYC tap water.
- I finally figured out what works for my skin!!!
- Forgot I have this almost empty jar of Nutella in my room as I finished my banana. :(
- We need more bread. I'm on that 24 hour, all bread diet (said in my best Drake voice).
- Should I try to post something up here everyday or is that too much??
Monday, July 11, 2011
Songs for women - Frank Ocean
Random Thoughts 7/11/11
- Sinus headaches suck. I was in the bed all day.
- I "forgot" to go do this lil girl's hair today. I hate dealing with her mother, ugh!
- Totally missing out on some of the greater things in life like being in NY, spending time with my sister, going to summer concerts, going to see the Tribe Documentary (about A Tribe Called Quest, duh).
- This chick on Youtube doing videos & her mouth looks like she eats cigarettes for a living.
- Meat is gross!! Back to being a vegetarian I go.
- After all this time off, thinking, and reflecting on myself & my life; I still don't know what I want to do in life. How awesome :|
- Back on my vitamins too.. How bad is it for me to take prenatal vitamins when you aren't pregnant?
- I want to see Transformers 3 again.
- Split ends are a bitch!!!
- KILL PEOPLE, BURN SHIT, FUCK SCHOOL! (And I'm not even in school!!!)
- I'm tired of NSA sexual relationships. I said that like I'm in several, it's just one.
- Why won't someone surprise me & pay my phone bill?
- I love surprises, btw. I never get any.
- I had an anxiety attack when my Dad didn't show up the other weekend. I didn't tell anyone about it either.
- These Skittles I had earlier were by far the best bag of Skittles I have ever had in life.
Dilemma or not?
Saturday, July 9, 2011
The Infamous Sex Post
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Random Thoughts 7/6/11
- My Dad needs to hurry up & finish the work on my car....... Well his car that he's giving me.
- 2 jobs. Need them! BADLY!
- Pay my debt down before 6/1/2012.. I don't even know how possible that is.
- No vacations until my debt is gone!!
- MONEY IS MY MOTIVATION!!!
- Save to move out.. My mom is getting crazier by the weeks.
- Compiling a list of expenses and fees needed to move out, still haven't done this yet.
- NO DEBT!!! I swear I fucked myself in the ass with that car & credit cards... Never again.
- Saving money is so easy to do when you have nowhere and no one to spend it on...
- FIRST BIG BUY ONCE I START WORKING IS A LAPTOP THAT I CAN FILL WITH PORN & MUSIC.
- Sentara will never see that $1,500 for their crap ass service & I promise that...
- Since I'll probably be working like a slave, relationships will probably be on the back burner.. Those who love me will understand, hopefully.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Jealous & Ok with it.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Isn't love about the risks?
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
This weekend 7/4/2011
Is this impossible?!
- I'm 25 & I want to get married!!
- I want to have my first child by 30.
- I need to be dating someone who wants the same things as me.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Begging & pleading.....
How would you handle someone begging for the sex and you don't want to have sex with them?
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Random Thoughts 6/22/11
Today has been a day full of self reflection & deep thinking and I know I need to change everything I want to change to be happy. After all these years, just yesterday my mother finally tells me I should do whatever makes me happy no matter what it is. Why wait to figure this out when I'm 25, where was this advice 10 years ago?! I'm just going to crawl back into my hole and figure out a way to get out & up from all of this crap.
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Monday, June 20, 2011
Pt 2 of I Don't Get It.
Now it's been a couple weeks after my bestie has been involved with this dude (still no sex, btw) and of course she's been calling me complaining about him still not bringing up sex and such. So last night that all changed. He called her to see if she wanted to go over and watch a movie. She automatically tells me she's not going if he's not giving her some sex and I'm like oh.. okay. Then he calls her again to confirm if she's going to come over or not & he tells her to stop and get some condoms. Again, she thinks he's lying or playing with her emotions. I'm on the sidelines telling her you never know, tonight could be the night, blah blah blah. After some "hard decision making", she goes over to see him. They have sex and like I told her, it was probably well worth the wait.
Now what I don't get about all this is
1. You got mad because the man wanted to spend time with you, no sex.
2. He doesn't hound you about sex, yet you hound him. Why?
As a woman who is known to be a tease, I would probably faint at a man who wants to spend time with me and doesn't have sex as his number 1 reason. That's so hard to find.. I know sex is a good portion of a relationship, but when you're trying to get to know someone better, sex is better when it's left on the back burner...
Very Random.
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Friday, June 17, 2011
Summer Plans....
I may stay home, find me a little part time job & stack some bread. I know my sister is gonna be pissed but being broke is so yesterday.
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Thursday, June 16, 2011
Random Thoughts on Marriage Pt. 1
Marriage is very sacred to me. As the vows state, "It should not be entered lightly", I believe that you should only be married once and to the person you love more than anything. Along with that marriage, there should be children or spawns of your love. I know a lot of people would say "you don't have to be married to have a kid", but for me, I have to be. I know any man (married, single, involved) can up and leave whenever they choose but if they are married, it's a little bit harder.
There's a certain security being married that most married couples know about. The fact that someone loves you that much to want to spend their life with you, want to have children with you, and given their vows to you with the promise of never leaving your side. I do see myself getting married and being the best wife and mother possible.
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Big K.R.I.T.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
I don't get it....
Now, they've been dating for a short while now and she calls me upset at the fact that he doesn't want have sex. She's use to guys wanting to hit on the first night & I told her I think it's awesome he doesn't want to have sex so soon. I think it means that he respects her that much to want to know her mind & heart first. She calls & complains about no sex has been had and I'm like "What's the issue?, I don't get it?!"
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Thursday, June 9, 2011
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Wednesday, June 8, 2011
You don't have to lie to me....
I love when people can be 100% honest with me about anything, especially if I ask them for advice or their opinion. In all my relationships, I tell the other person "You don't have to lie to me about anything. I'm grown & I can handle the truth." I know for a fact that a couple men think I'm just saying that because its a cool thing to say. No, I'm saying it because it's true. You have no need to lie to me. If I can't handle your truths, then that's my problem.
In the beginning of any kind of male/female love interest type of relationship, I always ask for dude to be upfront about everything. You want a sex only relationship, say so. Doesn't mean you're going to get that, but at least I know what you want. Even if we're already involved & you cheated, tell me. Why? So I can know & protect my body & heart at all cost. Plus, whatever is in the dark will come to light anyway.
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Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Oh really?!
One of my exes/homeboys hit me up telling me his job is hiring for a part time front desk position. After thinking about it, I decided to go ahead and apply. Now he & I have history but now he's married so that ship has sailed. Anyway, I get to his job during his shift to fill out the app. We're laughing, chatting and such. He offered to chill in the little living room area, I oblige and join him. As we're sitting there talking & watching tv together, I notice his wedding ring has magically disappeared. I thought that was so very hilarious.
Some niggas really ain't shit.
The end.
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Dreams of my own..
When most kids reach about 17 - 19, they want their own. I never had that feeling, until I turned 25. (What can I say, I'm a late bloomer) I'm just trying to get closer to this dream..
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My hair blog
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Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Untitled
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Goals for the rest of 2011.
1. Find a job. I need to get one before May 31st. I would love to have 2 part time jobs. (Yeah my summer may suck, but I need money more than traveling.)
2. Pay student loan off in full! (Hence, needing the job)
3. Bank. I need to save up like a couple grand so I can say "Oh, I got some money" when I actually will have thousands!
4. School. If I can't start Fall 2011, I HAVE to start Spring 2012. Computer Science is my major, may change it to Liberal Studies.
I know I can focus on the main 3 so that I can make the 4th happen.
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Monday, May 2, 2011
Let me go do a good old job search so I can make these things happen.
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Kinda in my feelings....
I guess all I can do is pray that they will be okay........
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Idk what's going on, but.....
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Saturday, April 23, 2011
Random Thought 4/23/11
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Celibacy no more...
I have an ex that was so amazed by my vagina that he even said it was weird. This fool said it felt like he was finger fuckin some warm yogurt. I was offended at first but then he said "its warm & sticky" and that he liked it in comparison to his past girlfriends. He described their vags as "Warm & dry holes". Eek!!
My question is do some women not have wet juice boxes for a reason (medical, hygiene issues, etc) and how/why do men cope with it being that way?
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Friday, April 22, 2011
End of story, lesson learned.
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Thursday, April 7, 2011
Update on the Bday plans.
Sex is 100% out of the window for that night & possibly weekend.
And no one else has hit me up to do something that weekend..
5 more days to go!!!!
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Honesty is the best!!
In all of the sexual relationships I've had, being 100 about your status is a must. Yeah we're going to be protected but I don't play with fire either way. Even with bf/gf relationships, just be upfront about everything. If you have a gf or some chick whose just some side booty, let me know. Let me have that choice to either be with you or not.
I don't see how some people can lie about the littlest things to the major stuff. If you tell the truth in the beginning, the rest should be a breeze. So think about the 'white lies' you may tell your girl/guy & if it was even worth it. More than likely it wasn't.
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Too Deep For The Intro - J. Cole
I wish I could just let these women in abusive relationships hear this.. Not even the whole song, just from 0:40 - 0:56..
Another quick update on the young lady whose bf abused her..... They are getting married the end of April if I saw correctly on Facebook.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Birthday Plans
I want to have dinner with my friends but my day falls on a Wednesday.
I want to have sex.. Good sex.. (Probably won't happen)
I want to go out somewhere & just go crazy (drinking & dancing, basically)
I guess I need to hit some people up to see if they wanna chill with the birthday girl..
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tweet & Greet VA
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Update
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Saturday, March 12, 2011
Should I?
The dilemma is that I was seeing in a very sexual manner another mutual friend for years. Recently we broke it off but R knows that he & I had something going on for the whole time since we went to school together.
I guess what I'm getting at is should I ask for more aka sex or just let what has happened a couple times just happen? (I really like him as my friend & I would love to have sex with him....)
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Friday, March 11, 2011
Random Thought
Also, speaking of sex... Haven't had that since January and I don't see myself getting any, anytime soon. So far so good I might add. I am no longer subjecting myself to bad sex & sex with no ties.
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Monday, March 7, 2011
I'm not getting....
Fast forward to today & one of my bestie's brought up the cut buddy option. The last time I had a cut buddy, I went outside the guidelines & caught feelings. I kinda feel like I shouldn't have a cut buddy, but on the other hand I have needs.. I'm thinking to just go without until someone decent shows up.... Whenever that will be.
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Back on the 4th of July, a very close & good friend was taken away from the world by her boyfriend because she didn't want him anymore. I just wish the young lady could see that this could possibly be her. It's too soon for something like this to happen again.. I hope she sees things her family's way & decides to get out of this abusive relationship..
Monday, February 7, 2011
Crushed.....
She gets home from work & I present the cake to her. She looks at it, decided to get herself a piece & as she cuts it, she says aloud "Oh.. I know I'm not going to like this." I'm standing there like WTF?! I really wanted to scream on her about how I went out, spent my last bit of money & you say that you KNOW you aren't going to like it before you even eat it!!!! She did eat 1 piece of cake & complained the whole time how she didn't like the cake.
So all weekend I've been eating her birthday cake in anger (and to not be wasteful). That was some ungrateful shit. Next year, she won't be getting a cake from me at all.. How about those apples, mom?!
You learn as you see.. Right?
Speed up to the past week or so..... I was thinking, why are we such "under achievers"? Then I immediately looked at our parents, my mother is now a college graduate & father a blue collar worker. Now they both were young when they started a family (18/19), but in the 80s that was okay because the cost of living was much cheaper than it is now. The only thing I can say my parents taught me when it comes to being a great adult is to NOT start a family when you aren't financially stable & to work hard.
But is working hard all we need to do to get somewhere in life? Because I think I worked pretty hard (until recently) and gained hella debt in the same time. They didn't teach us great financial responsibility. And the school system sure didn't.
Basically what I'm saying is that we are under achievers because our parents are. They graduated high school, some attempted college, few graduated college, & had families. (Can't say successful marriages because I'm a child of divorce + 2 failed re-marriages). I guess at 25, I can change this and make sure I'm the best me that I could & wished to be. So in April, I'll start.. For now, I'll loaf around in my depression and devise a plan.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Oh Nicki...
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Selfish or Not?
Now, I'm 24 yrs old, unemployed & living at home. I DO NOT have health insurance. Why? Because my mother (who can add me at any time because I am well qualified to be covered) thinks that she shouldn't have to pay extra to have me on her policy. Yet, she is willing to pay for some weight loss supplement that costs $300. I'm guessing my health means nothing to her, but her losing weight trumps that... I know that its her money & she can do what she damn well pleases, but this is just selfish.
Eh, I haven't had insurance since the day after my 21st bday.. Another year or so won't kill me, right?
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Monday, January 17, 2011
I'm THAT girl...
...who can hang with the girls & stand out.
...who settled when love showed up.
...who caught feelings when she shouldn't have.
...who thinks about him & can't stop.
...who should be HIS girl.
...who has been rejected one too many times.
...who breaks hearts because I think its fair to do it before I let it happen to me.
I'm that type of girl.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Pre- Sex Rituals
Before I have sex, there are several things I MUST do!
1. Buy condoms (unless the dude is providing them)
2. Take a bath. I'm not big on douching, so soaking in the tub getting my snatch fresh is good for me.
3. While in the tub, I shave. Legs, pits, snatch. You never know when a man may want to lick & kiss places where the hair has grown outrageously.
4. Lotion my entire body & add smell goods. I'm all about smelling good.
5. Pineapples! Water! Pineapples are know to make the coochie smell yum yum. Water is great for naturally lubercating the snatch. This is also great for men. Women who swallow hate bleach smelling/tasting jizz.
6. I forgot to add pedicure!! You never know when dude may want to suck a toe or 2.
What are your pre-sex rituals? Leave comments!
Friday, January 7, 2011
My hair blog
Come check me out, I'll be talking about everything hair from locs to weaves to coloring & hairstyles!
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http://hairbyebony.blogspot.com
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Goals for 2011
So far I came up with (thought about) the ways I can keep up with my hair & I think I'm going to start a hair journal/blog.
Caring less is really easy. I'm just going to keep up my "IDGAF" mentality & hopefully that will be good enough.
Finding myself & my happiness will kind of go hand in hand with writing in my journal. I've heard writing your feelings & thoughts down will help you realize things in yourself you may have never known about yourself. I'm just hoping that will really work for me.
Good luck to you all & your goals, resolutions, etc.
Bitch Niggas.
A bitch nigga in my book is a dude that is overly clingy, scary acting, and not 100% sure of himself as being a man.
I know of a couple bitch niggas, but there is one that I really can't stand. He's a cool guy (sometimes), but when I hear true facts about him from his "lady" (girl that was his girlfriend but he still thinks they are together); I'm like "That dude is definitely a bitch ass nigga". I wish I could go into further details about said bitch nigga , but I can't. Maybe at a later date.