Update on my life!

6 days later....

Hi again! How are you? How's your family? How's your spleen? Was it affected by today's earthquake? Did it survive? Cool or awww, I'm sorry to hear that.

The family's DC trip was decent..... Except for Thursday night to Saturday when I got sick. Kept having fevers, barely ate, and my throat was hurting so bad. The trip ended Saturday afternoon when we made that long yet short voyage back to VA. So another 28/40 hours go by and finally I decided to go to the emergency room to find out I have tonsillitis. They hooked me up with some antibiotics, a steroid (for the swelling), and a numbing gel. That numbing gel is amazing. Been about 24 hours since I've been taking all the meds, and I feel a whole lot better. I can finally eat again. I will say that if I had medical insurance, they would of admitted me and removed both tonsils last night..... Sucks right?

Why do people state the obvious? Like in the ER, the nurse says while checking my temperature, "You do have a temp." Bitch I must have one if I walked in here with a fleece hoodie on, zipped all the way up. Then the doctor says "Your tonsils look gross & like they hurt really bad". No duh, dick. Why else would I be in here?

OH! Forgot to take pics most of our DC trip since I was sick for most of it.. And the infamous family reunion was really lame.... I would say it was uneventful, but Friday night we hooked up with my cousins and my mother got drunk off of some homemade Sangria. My grandmother (mother's mom) called us alcoholics because we had some drinks & that we should sleep there because we were drunk. Saturday after dinner with the entire family, I chilled with my cousin & my aunt (the abusive one).. These fools had me drinking Absolut 100. Devil's piss burns so bad, never will I ever drink that again. And my aunt had parking lot car sex from what I think was going down before I decided to leave. Sunday afternoon, my grandma talked ever more shit about drinking and how we got home since we were oh so drunk. I just looked at her, thinking "Even if I was drunk, I would never drive compared to someone who has been paralyzed for 2 almost 3 years and can barely walk."

Outside of being sick for about a week, an uneventful family trip & family reunion; I must say the last week or so has been decent. Now I need to spice my last week of summer up with a piercing or something.. Don't know what I want to do for sure yet...

Not so random thoughts for 8/16/11

• DC trip is tomorrow and I haven't packed. FML.
• Sunday night, "lust" called & invited me to see him perform on Monday. The fact that he called, not FB message but CALLED had me excited.
• Monday night, I went to see him perform & it was bawse. Even though I went dolo, I had a good time.
• Last day of babysitting and I'm excited!
• My sister is coming back to VA for the week. We are gonna do some hoodrat things all week, we have to.
• Writing out all these directions since my printer still doesn't have ink. YAY.
• Somebody come pack for me. I'll pay you in fried chicken & rice.
• I may have another babysitting gig when I get back from DC. 2 kids this time though.
• Seriously, the smallest things make me happy & turn me on.
• Somebody pay my cellphone bill & buy me a round trip train ticket to NYC.
• After babysitting this little baby, I don't want kids as much.. Then again, my children won't be this spoiled.
• The family reunion was ok. A lot of funny stuff went down. I'll blog about it later.
• That 1 blue motorcycle I had last night @ the club had me bent. I'm such a lightweight.

8.11.11 Random Thoughts

• What's today?! THURSDAY!!! Idk why I feel so blah.
• That last one was a lie, waking up at 5:30am to watch a cranky, spoiled baby is why I feel so lethargic.
• Yeah, I said lethargic.
• Tomorrow is going to be full of baby vomit, free HD cable, and close relatives. I really can't wait for that family get together.
• I talked to "Like" last night.. :D :D
• Why did the baby I watch have on the same outfit he had on yesterday? How can you not wash your baby?
• I totally under-charged these folks for watching their kid 8.5 hrs a day, for 5 days should equal way more than $20/day.
• I'm too nice sometimes. It's a gift & curse.
• Why do parents call to talk to a baby that can not respond back? Like that makes no sense at all!
• I have to stop saying like in front of everything. It's annoying.
• I want to make a random photo montage of myself. Is that vain?
• I need some olive oil so I can go back to oil pulling.
• I may delete my Tumblr.
• The DC trip is going to just be the DC trip next week.. No NYC this summer for me at all. FML ;( :(
• I'll be doing a photo post of this weekend's events with the fam.. That is if I don't forget my camera.
• JUST FIGURED OUT WHAT SONG MY SISTER WAS ASKING ME ABOUT LAST NIGHT!!! The mystery is solved now. Case closed.

Late night thoughts

• I saw that I got a email from Blind Fury's website. When did I sign up for that? Did someone sign him? Dude is decent.
• Babysitting for the next 4 days from 6am to 4pm. At least it's going to put some money in my pocket.
• Doing hair as a hustle isn't happening. Guess that's cool since my heart isn't in it like it use to be.
• I'm getting better and better at painting my nails with little to no mistakes. I would love some new colors and crackle polish.
• Once I get my sewing machine, I'll be making plenty of no pattern needed type of things like maxi dresses and some easy tops.
• I have to think of more topics/posts for my hair blog.
• I wonder if the 3Ls think about me as much as I think about them.
• Green is my color and I just realized it today.
• The weekend can't get here soon enough.
• 5:30 is going to be here quick.
• I wonder where I'll be in the next year because I can't be in the same place.

Like, Lust, Love......

These are 3 entirely different stages and I feel this way about 3 totally different guys. Most people get the like and love emotions confused, but not me.

Guy 1 aka Like is a sweet, caring type of guy. He makes me laugh, we chat online almost every single day and I can see a future with him. The only bad thing, he lives hours away... I just realized I genuinely cared for him when he told me he lost a close family member. At that exact moment, I wanted to be there for him. And anyone who really knows me that I don't show compassion towards people I don't care for, because I could really care less. That's just how I have always been.

Guy 2 aka Lust is a cool, funny, weird, likable guy that I've known for a couple years now. We have this off & on cut buddy thing that I love (cuz the sex is awesome) but outside of that, we really like each other. I don't know about him, but I do have some deep feelings towards him and they all aren't sexual. To tell him those feelings will never happen because of my fear of rejection (again).

Guy 3 aka Love could be my everything. And I mean that. He makes me laugh, he takes care of me, my family loves him, he's the best thing that never happened (relationship wise). I would bring up the whole distance thing sucks (which it does) but I know that would not be enough for us. I really don't know how to feel about him, since I know he's miles and hours away.

8.9.11 Randomness

• The internet is so boring to me, recently.
• No phone + no life = BORED all the time. Seriously.
• I just realized I'm in LIKE, LOVE, and LUST. How does that even happen?
• Our DC family trip may turn into our NYC family trip and I would love that more than anything!
• Craisins are little jewels from heaven.
• Finally went to VA Beach this past weekend. It was awesome, I got my salt water taffy & ate 2 boxes.
• Snapped a couple pics while at the beach, and I must say my backyard is looking really full these days and I LOVE IT!
• I haven't eaten an entire meal in about 5 days. Is that bad?
• Family reunion this weekend will feature alcoholic beverages, cursing, fighting, and just ignorance and I'm completely down for it!
• I had to Google how to spell alcoholic, that can't be good at all.
• I start my 6 day long baby sitting gig tomorrow morning around 6:10am. YIPEE.
• I want a sewing machine BADLY. I have so many ideas of things I want to make (from Youtube inspiration) but no sewing machine :(
• Twitter is wack. I think it's more of certain people I follow. It may just be me.
• Working on a real post soon.

Random Thoughts of the early day

1. I want to leave VA. More so the wing of my mother.
2. Got a new toothbrush yesterday & I love it..
3. Looking for a job is a job and I hate it.
4. Brought a pattern to make a dress but I'm not going to use that until I get a sewing machine.
5. Oh, I'm going to start making clothes.. First piece is going to be a pencil skirt.
6. I need to rest up, we have a big delivery coming & a service man to fix the fridge tomorrow..
7. Still haven't heard anything back from those interviews.. I'm not sure if I really care though.
8. Been listening to Amel Larrieux's Bravebird album for the past couple of days. I'm in love.
9. Online job applications are the worst things ever invented for a person with a short attention span since it's not entertaining.
10. With #1, I wouldn't mind doing something not all the way thought thru like just leaving the homefront with no exact location in mind until I get there..

I have a different outlook today.

Every so often, I have a change of heart & mind. Today, my mind is clear & open for any opportunity that may arise. Sitting here looking at jobs, applying to ones I know I'm qualified for and I randomly start searching in other areas (Richmond, NYC, etc) like I can just pick up and leave for a job. And I start thinking, why couldn't I just up & leave here? Outside of money, I have no real issues stopping me. I don't even know where I would want to move to, just some where other than here.

It's just me, my optimistic mind, and opportunities in this world. What's really stopping me from leaving?