Uhh Hi!!

lol I haven't been here in a long time.. Almost forgot about this blog.. Anyhow.. So much has happened recently.. Let's get this part over & done with:

1. Lost my job 2 days before Thanksgiving.. Reason? I have no fuckin idea.. What did I learn? Not to work for a crazy white bitch.. And that in the Commonwealth of Virginia, you can get fired for no apparent reason.
2. I can't collect unemployment because I never filed my taxes.. Ever!
3. There are nooooo jobs out there!!
4. I have been borderline depressed about not working & not having money..
5. A plus is I'm doing hair whenever I can and I am still making my own car payments..
6. Christmas is a week away and I have nothing to give anyone.. Even though my closest friends and family understand, I still feel bad about it..
7. I had a interview for a temp agency.. So hopefully after Christmas something will pan out with that.
8. I had to cancel my gym membership so my plans to slim & trim by the summer is kinda out of the question.
9. I'm completely single.. And I mean not 1 attachment to anybody..
10. I'm in love with someone I've never met.. But he's hundreds of miles away..

I think my next few blogs are going to be mini rants about my day to day life as someone unemployed.. Maybe some poetry thrown in the mix.. You know, totally random ish..

Random Thoughts for 10/29/09

So yesterday I was talking to my mom about my plans for 2010 and how I wanted to do a lot of traveling and such. When I mentioned me and my longtime ex/current/next love may be going to DC for New Years she went off. I understand her reason to be angry but being the person that I am, she should know I like to do things my way until I realize I have failed. And so far I'm not done trying my hand at love with this guy.. I just feel like maybe it is meant to be this way.. Maybe he is the one.. I don't want to fail at this, only because she'll be right there saying I told you so! I even told him that and he was like let's prove everybody wrong babe.. My emotions are getting the best of me.. If he says the right thing, I fall for it.. If he plans to take me out and at the last minute bails, I get upset but forgive him the next time. ((Currently getting choked up))

I hate my job. Well not really hate, just have a strong dislike for it. I haven't had a raise in about a year yet I'm still here and NO body is talking money. The owner is in the middle of this nasty separation/divorce and her future ex hubby stole over $32Gs from her so she's struggling. She was even talking about closing the company, which would leave ME without a job.. I'm currently looking for something different.. I can't keep coming in here and keep slacking on the job without somebody noticing..

I just feel bleh.. I know someone is reading this like "Damn girl, cheer up".. My period is coming and my emotions are all across the board.. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks and it shows... Been in everybody's scalp making them look cute while I'm walking around looking like a hot damn mess.. I'm taking some me time this weekend and try to pull Me together..

Static - Kenna