My best friend called me this morning & told me some disturbing news. Her younger sister was beaten by her boyfriend/father of her 2 sons. They have been having problems for a while now, where he has threatened to kill her & the boys, along with himself if she didn't do something he wanted. Since that day, her family has been telling her to leave him, come back home... To just get out!

Back on the 4th of July, a very close & good friend was taken away from the world by her boyfriend because she didn't want him anymore. I just wish the young lady could see that this could possibly be her. It's too soon for something like this to happen again.. I hope she sees things her family's way & decides to get out of this abusive relationship..

Crushed.....

So last Thursday was my mother's 44th birthday and since I'm jobless, broke, and just down I decided to do something nice for the woman who birthed me. At first I was going to make her a cake, but I thought that may not turn out as good as a store brought cake. So I took my last $13 bucks & brought her a cake.. I tried to get something I thought she would like...

She gets home from work & I present the cake to her. She looks at it, decided to get herself a piece & as she cuts it, she says aloud "Oh.. I know I'm not going to like this." I'm standing there like WTF?! I really wanted to scream on her about how I went out, spent my last bit of money & you say that you KNOW you aren't going to like it before you even eat it!!!! She did eat 1 piece of cake & complained the whole time how she didn't like the cake.


So all weekend I've been eating her birthday cake in anger (and to not be wasteful). That was some ungrateful shit. Next year, she won't be getting a cake from me at all.. How about those apples, mom?!

You learn as you see.. Right?

A little back story: Recently, my sister told me that my grandparents said that all of us (my sister, myself, & cousins) are all under achievers.

Speed up to the past week or so..... I was thinking, why are we such "under achievers"? Then I immediately looked at our parents, my mother is now a college graduate & father a blue collar worker. Now they both were young when they started a family (18/19), but in the 80s that was okay because the cost of living was much cheaper than it is now. The only thing I can say my parents taught me when it comes to being a great adult is to NOT start a family when you aren't financially stable & to work hard.

But is working hard all we need to do to get somewhere in life? Because I think I worked pretty hard (until recently) and gained hella debt in the same time. They didn't teach us great financial responsibility. And the school system sure didn't.

Basically what I'm saying is that we are under achievers because our parents are. They graduated high school, some attempted college, few graduated college, & had families. (Can't say successful marriages because I'm a child of divorce + 2 failed re-marriages). I guess at 25, I can change this and make sure I'm the best me that I could & wished to be. So in April, I'll start.. For now, I'll loaf around in my depression and devise a plan.

Oh Nicki...

I'm a Nicki fan... Not because she has dope lyrics. But because she's hilarious!! I know she said in some interview that she wanted to be taken more seriously, but why?! Her gimmick is working for her so much!!! Anyhow, check her out from last Saturday 1/29/11 on SNL.