So this guy who I'm in love with.. I can't even get the words out right... He's what I want and more.. He makes me happy without touching me.. Very kind with words. He appreciates me for me. He's happy knowing that I'm happy.. He's cute, the sweetest guy I could have ever met, and he's all mine!
Right now some distance issues is keeping us apart but one day soon.. We'll be together.. I know he's the right guy for me.. I can feel it in my heart, mind, and soul.. Trey Songz said in a song, "I should be praying instead of wishing you were here with me".. I'm starting to pray for us.. I should of been praying before.. But now I have a million reasons to pray with him being #2 on my list...
Friday, December 18, 2009
She's Dying (2006)
This poem is dedicated to my aunt who passed away about 13 years ago now..
She's dying.. Unwillingly, alone, scared..
She's dying.. Quietly, confused, happy
She's dying.. Knowing that she's going to be free
Free of the pain, sorrow, and guilt.
She's dying.. Wondering if she can be saved..
Is there a cure?
She's dying.. Medicine not working, but she's trying..
She's dying.. Maybe not alone, but other don't know her struggle
She's dying... Does anyone care? Do they know? Why aren't they here?
Mouth closed, eyes shut, she's gone. Nobody knew her pain. All was lost but could of been gained, if we only knew... She was dying, but living alone. Not completely dead, but unworthy of life. The lessons that could of been taught, the happiness brought to hearts all around, she's heaven-bound, heart full of joy. She's gone. Done dying, now she's living in the rhythm of the waves, beats of drums, sounds of love. She's gone. Done dying, dried tears, full of vigor.. She's dead.
Ode To Black Girls (7/26/06)
Swaying your hips when you walk
Popping your gum when you talk
The hood raised her.
Sassy, yet classy; disrespectful when needed
Dudes try to get at her, she doesn't need it
Unnecessary drama of hood life
She sees herself in a different light
College bound, career found
Ghetto girls can make it out!!
Attracted to the finer things in life, she finds her way out
From a road already doomed and booby trapped,
She sees success isn't far
Go left into the light or go right into the dark
Sometimes feeling alone, she strayed back to the dark
Her trials and tribulations bring her out
Unknowing that girls just like her around
staring down the same path, just looking for a different way
Broken down & beaten by society; Black girls can do it!
Never alone, but always forgotten
Black girls stand strong!
Sorrow of the Heart (7/17/06)
I guess in 2006, I was going thru a lot of relationship problems..
Unchained melody of my heart sounds like a thunderous pain.
Bleeding, aching for attention
Doctor, please cure this agony
Unpleased, neglected for love.
Scorned, tinged heart... Please beat again..
Money Blues (7/26/06)
Bills coming, nothing going out
Damn, the lights went out
Should I save us by making a call to that guy who said he'll help if I fall........
Or should I ask the neighbors to save us again?
My pride won't let me ask them again, even though they know my plight
Jesus knows my pain; I wish I knew his plan
I leave things all undone, he'll make a way.
RING! RING! on my rotary phone
The Light Company
"Sorry ma'am you have a credit, lights will be on in a second"
Was that the works of the man with the plan?
Was it the neighbors, helping again?
Who knows?!
But I thank them.
Love is.. (9/12/2008)
I'm guessing I was going thru something with my ex so I scribbled this down on a post it.. Enjoy!
Love is pure.
We were in it's purest form
You descended into the atmosphere too soon...
I stayed afloat with you always in my heart
Love is pain.
You caused this pain
Love is pure... bullshit.
Uhh Hi!!
lol I haven't been here in a long time.. Almost forgot about this blog.. Anyhow.. So much has happened recently.. Let's get this part over & done with:
- Lost my job 2 days before Thanksgiving.. Reason? I have no fuckin idea.. What did I learn? Not to work for a crazy white bitch.. And that in the Commonwealth of Virginia, you can get fired for no apparent reason.
- I can't collect unemployment because I never filed my taxes.. Ever!
- There are nooooo jobs out there!!
- I have been borderline depressed about not working & not having money..
- A plus is I'm doing hair whenever I can and I am still making my own car payments..
- Christmas is a week away and I have nothing to give anyone.. Even though my closest friends and family understand, I still feel bad about it..
- I had a interview for a temp agency.. So hopefully after Christmas something will pan out with that.
- I had to cancel my gym membership so my plans to slim & trim by the summer is kinda out of the question.
- I'm completely single.. And I mean not 1 attachment to anybody..
- I'm in love with someone I've never met.. But he's hundreds of miles away..
I think my next few blogs are going to be mini rants about my day to day life as someone unemployed.. Maybe some poetry thrown in the mix.. You know, totally random ish..
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