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I'm tired of touching myself. I would rather have you do it.. Kissing me, licking me, touching me; deeply. I miss your touch so much it hurts.
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Goals for the rest of 2011.

Sometimes I need to write things out for myself (like most people, I hope). Just yesterday, I re-applied for school & financial aid. Today I find out I won't be able to get FinAid because of a delinquent loan I have from hair school. Now I need to take care of that so I can start school with a clean slate!

1. Find a job. I need to get one before May 31st. I would love to have 2 part time jobs. (Yeah my summer may suck, but I need money more than traveling.)

2. Pay student loan off in full! (Hence, needing the job)

3. Bank. I need to save up like a couple grand so I can say "Oh, I got some money" when I actually will have thousands!

4. School. If I can't start Fall 2011, I HAVE to start Spring 2012. Computer Science is my major, may change it to Liberal Studies.

I know I can focus on the main 3 so that I can make the 4th happen.
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The past 2 weeks, the urge to "grow up" has been on me heavy. I want more responsibilities like my own apartment & a job. I want my own everything. I guess it's my time to do those things. I know for a fact this will make me a whole lot happier (not saying I'm not happy, but it will make things better) & ready me for bigger & better things like marriage & children.

Let me go do a good old job search so I can make these things happen.

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Kinda in my feelings....

So this past weekend, I ran into my so-called best friend's sisters @ a local club. They both were telling me that she up & moved all the way to Texas. Just her & her 2 sons (1 of which who isn't even fully cooked yet) living in Texas broke with no family to help. So the older sister was telling me that she just told her whole family that she couldn't deal with their drama & such, so she was going to separate herself from it. On one hand I commend her for speaking up & but on the other hand I'm a little upset. Why would you move thousands of miles & over 6 hrs away from your family & friends?! Its not even huge that she left, its the fact that she has 2 babies she has to care for & that she has no means to do so.

I guess all I can do is pray that they will be okay........

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Idk what's going on, but.....

I think I'm changing or maturing. I'm doing a lot of things I normally wouldn't do like babysitting, offering my help (knowing I won't get anything in return), saying whatever is on my mind (respectfully), and letting things go. The letting things go is easy for me because I've always been that way, but now it's a whole lot easier.

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